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Saturday, December 18, 2004
Almost 21...so soon....
Tonight I celebrated mybirthday with my mom, my sister, brother (in-law) and my niece and nephew (twins!). My brother in-laws parents were also there and though they are not my favourite people in the world my brother in-law is generally a good guy. My sister thinks my day was 'ruined' in part by them being there, but it wasn't. She doesn't seem to understand that if it means I get to see her and....we'll call him...Robert. Robert and the twins then its ok. I won't get to see them very much anymore as it is so I'll take what I can get.
My sister had baked me a cake (with the help of her mom-in law,) and we made homemade pizzas so it was a good night. I got my usual Disney movie from her and Paul and I got a new faerie from the twins...which Paul had found. Again Paul found something completely perfect for me...it's a faerie with wind chimes attached....and I absolutley love it. I don't think he realizes how much I like the faerie frame I got last year, because I haven't put a picture in it yet, but that's because the picture of the faerie it came with is just so good looking I can't bring myself to take it out.
JeN's home and we'll be getting ready for some good partying tomorrow when I get together with the girls for some fun drinking times. I'm a little depressed still but I'm forcig my way through it all. Again. I keep wondering if this will be the time when I snap. Everyone snaps eventually. I'm just wondering when my time will come.
I was looking over the hill top,
into the stand of trees,
The dull-hued lights create a backlit scene of nature,
the black trees thrusting up into the sky,
the black uneven ground hosting the trees through time.
the light was unnatural and ugly behind the trees.
The sky was black and navy and an ugly shade of gray.
lending a trace of despondancy to the unhealthy lands.
The ugly scene is embossed upon my mind,
the knowledge that if only the light were natural,
the scene would become unmatched in nature,
begins to give way to fear.
EroticFae
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