Friday, December 17, 2004
DarkEros lives
I begin to sink into another depression based on how alone I am. I wish He was here. If He was here he could wrap His arms around me and make me His again, even though He has only ever made me his on here and on the phone I am still His. But Always Alone.
No I'm sorry that's not right,
Never Alone but Always Lonely.
I think I'm coming to the realization slowly that if I were to experience being with another female I could become bi-sexual.
Well, at least in so far as the upper half, I don't know if I could go down on another girl.
I mean don't get me wrong....I really like the penis....really like it.
Yeah I definately couldn't do away with that....but still....I dunno I'm getting tired and really starting to stress about the one male in my life that could make me happy but doesn't realize it, and doesn't want a relationship more than the friendship we have because he's afraid he will just hurt me more than he has now but...well more details are on my blurty if you really want them...he's not worth stressing over,
and yet as I say it I want to burst into tears.
I refuse too.
I am stone inside and out.
And yet as malleable as damp clay,
and the fluidity of my soul could reach the stars.
The tears I cried for pain and death,
now lie deep within the River Styx,
Ferryman Charon I'll give you your bribe,
So long as this broken and twisted heart,
Hades can fix.
DarkErospyxii
|| by Fae ||
12:20:00 AM |
