Okay So now I'm in a rare mood. It was a rare mood to begind with as could be noticed by the ...after name?.....on my MSN. Which happened to be "Today I want to hold the Whip," It was a rare mood.

Only to be made rarer...?....when someone asked what it meant and why I was being so pissy lately. I made some smart ass remark and shortly got a "Fine you want to be a bitch well fuck-you too,"...although much more hostile sounding.

One thing I can not abide is being called names or sworn at in anger. I will not do it to you. Please do not do it to me. It's a small thing I hold in deep regard. It's called Respect.

Now I do not mean to go all "Respect lady" On you, (For those of us Ajaxians out there) but respect is a big thing and being able to control your temper is an amazing thing.

At this place in time. I. am. Angry. I wrote it with a smile on my face and love in my heart. I do not, and will not yell at you. I will very calmly, try to explain how I feel I've been wronged, and if we're on the phone hang up when I'm done letting you get no word in edge-wise. If you're in front of me I will shakily confront you with a waver in my voice because I don't like showing emotions. Particularly volatile ones. When I am done. I will calmly walk away.

If you try to reason with me, I will listen, and if I think your point is more valid. I will conceed. If I don't, I will not back down.

It's called Strength of Conviction. Not annoying. Or infuriating. Those are feelings that may be felt by the other party when dealing with me in this mood. I understand that, I can see how some would find that my unwillingness to stamp my feet and scream bloody murder infuriating. Sort of.

I can be wrong. I will admit that if I think I am wrong, maybe not gracefully, but I will do it. Ask Jen. Or Lauren. they both know I will do it.

If people would calm down more often before letting their anger loose, there might be less cases of road rage, less cases of random violence. It's a matter of knowing when, where and how to vent your emotions.

I can sort of handle my own. I shouldn't have to handle other peoples as well.

I may come back and re-read/edit this later when I'm not so....*scrunching my nose* Yech.....argumentative, confrontational. Angry. *biting off the last word*

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